"About Something"

That's my little lame joke.

After not writing here for, really, too long, I decided I needed to write something here. Only, out of practice, needing a topic, I kept vaguely telling myself I needed to write about something but then would trail off after that. So I decided to break the logjam and take myself literally, put what I'd been telling myself at the top of the page, and here we are.

So how have things been in random land?

Erf. I've been trying to avoid that question.

You'd think a day job that was constrained to forty hours would be a good thing. Sometimes it would be nice, actually, to be able to at my own discretion work a bit longer and not have to fight so hard to try to compress everything into a short time. I'm starting to feel burned out, and even though I had a lovely vacation in the middle of the past few weeks I returned to an even more explosive amount of work. People at work cheerfully tell me that this is job security.

Hmm.

No, no, no, wrong, bad, no... that does not equal job security. People depending on a single person too much doesn't equal job security. Forget the "hit by a bus" scenario of workforce planning, even the act of making me too contested a resource -- even if I'm good about saying no and trying not to overcommit (which I'm terrible about but learning) -- leads to many, many disappointments and eventually to loss of good will.

I feel like I need to make myself more scarce at work.

And I wish to hell more of my coworkers would remember the training I give them on the computer. I really do love my coworkers, but I'm finding I spend a lot of time training and retraining some of them in what I consider basic computer use skills. If I had more time, I could continue to provide that all the time. I probably can't afford to keep doing that, which makes me a bit sad.

Unfortunately, this has made my mood so surly at home that I've been spending more time that I care to admit in "introvert damage control mode" and trying to just sit in my chair in front of my computer doing comfort things. Bad habit I need to break.

So, here we go.

--random